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Pe salah ira mami ?! :'( sal kena bilang semua org psl diri ira .. airmata jatuh* sigh ! what else i can do ? you always keep thinking negative abt me .. Im tired of it .. ira selama ni sabar like how u used to be patient with my own attitude :/ Ira tk pnh pikir kawan lebih daripada keluarga. since when i say that ? Ira bukan yg kua hari2 pon .. i know you miss the old me . What u expect me to do ? everybody change :'( but i will try to listen to you like how i used .. Im sorry if i hurt you again n again .. Its all my fault ! I really thankful to have a wonderful aunt ' Mama Jihan ' She is the one that always been taking care of me since i was a babygirl.. haha ^^ I love your advices .. U really make me feel lil bit better right now :') Thnks mama . syg mama ttm <333 All i cn do is know i need my mum trust back .. But i need to be fair and square with her . Ira tknk dia ungkit cite dulu and it really hurts me abt past .. like seriously * I wanna start afresh with my family . I want our happiness bck like how we used to mami :') You know i love you so much even though u can be so irritating sometimes -.- hahah ! you are amazing just the way you are mami :) u actually understand me alot but just that i realised i didnt appreciate you that much ... but actually right now i appreciate u mami and i really do ... Its just that i really hate it when you always selalu side abg sedangkn im here like sakit hati .. den you mcm idk urh . but as your own daughter i really forgive you urh .. Ape2 mami da sakitkn hati ira ke apa i maafkan you already :') <333 idk what else to do right now . I keep crying :'( fuck ! as what i say something bad gonna happen .. this is what i mean :'( EVen though yesterday i get to sleep at akiff's house . I cnt even sleep .. i keep crying abt you :'( Because i know i didnt even listen you not even once . Sumpah aku degil nak mampos ! wahduhh ` All i cn do is to listen and be back home early :) Dont worry okay . I will talk to you once im okay . pasal ira skrg tgh pikir benda2 mcm2 kt otak . Idk why * adoii ! sumpah aku tk blh breathe properly bile tgh nanges rbk gile .. adoii* idk what else to do ... nnti mama gonna talk to you how i feel already .. maybe frm there u cn understand me ... psl setiap kali ira tgk family laen hang out together as in happy2 sini sana . abh kita kt rumah uat hal sendiri nnti tk psl i go out with my friend u start to think negative abt me :'/ that's what i dont like abt you mami :'( i really love you and i really lucky to have u in my life :') Mami , ira sedih i really dont know psl .. kalau setiap kali i face to face with you . I feel like hugging u tightly right now :'( sumpah aku sakit hati and i really hate myself just because i hurt you so much .. in my head not just because im handling this problem there's so much thing i need to handle .. i cnt think properly right now :'( Hais ! i wanna talk to you soon . biar sama2 kita nanges asalkan we understand each other . kan mami ? :'( i love you so much .. Hug u tightly and kiss u in the cheek * :D <333