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You tahu tak setiap kali kita gaduh .. kalau airmata i da start meleleh gmbr ni je lurh i selalu tgk and i uat nangis semcm :') <333 I can flash back easily when i see this photos .. how much fun we had since feb till before we official ! I really love you so much muhd akiff .. Marah2 , perangai2 pun i tetap masih sayangkan you .. tak pernah pun sesekali i benci org yg i betul2 sayang :') Tkde sekali pn i nk benci relationship kita jugak pasal .. there's so much memories we had ! And i can see that you're the one for me ... you my one and only baby bumbum :') <333 ' Iraaa ... akiff punya baby#1 kan ?! ' ingat ni sentence ;'( *crying badly* I just want you to understand my feelings like how i try to understand ur feelings .. but idk why u keep thinking negative sedangkn i da cakap but still .. I cant help it ~ I just kept quiet .. then i keep rewind it back .. Im sorry if i make you angry or etc .. example when i didnt even ans ur question ni semua .. i get irritated sometimes but sometimes ur question just tk blh uat i jawab benda tu :/ I tak nak our relationship to be in this state. I this few days lain pasal u and irahh smile .. its not that i tak bagi u berkwn dia .. atau nk benci dia ! mmg dia kawan i .. but sejak u contact dia and otp dgn dia bila time mlm .. i selalu pikir ; i ni siapa ?! :'( sampai kdg2 goodnight msg i tk dpt pn i diam je .. i cuma tgk video u je kt blog bila part u ckp goodnight ni semua baru i tidur ;'( kadang2 bila u otp dgn dia my msg kdg2 sampai tak ter reply ... and thats where i selalu fed up and binget sendiri tk tentu pasal .. nanti2 kadang2 bila u cerita kt i pasal irahh smile .. i selalu kn ckpp ' ohh okay , okay ' i tknk cakap banyak ... i diam je ~ semalam pun actually i otp dgn izam pn pasal i bbl psl u ... den dia ckp dia tak suke tgk i sedih .. pasal dia ckp airmata ppn tu case precious .. ' and he dont like his own friend sedih because of this r/s and i say okay i wont be sad ... and dia pun ckp dia nk back off pasal dia tk nk u pikir apa2 pasal he respect our relationship .. dia nk jmpe i ni semua he just wanna see wether im okay ke tak as friend he only care je nothing else .. he's just a friend of mine .. but u pikir izam mcm nk rampas i daripada u .. sedangkn dia tk suke kan i pun ;( Pasal i bilang kt dia .. i cuma setia kepada muhd akiff bin kamal je ! :'( pasal dia je yg blh uat i bahagia ... *crying badly* I dont wanna lose .. do you know that ?! makin hari makin menambah sayang i kat you ..Selama ni i belanja u pun .. pasal im trying to be the old me :'( I selalu nangis mlm2 teringat pasal kita .. and pikir pasal you ni semua ! Bila kita gaduh .. i nangis kt bilik and my lung hurts like hell .. sampai i ambik wallet i .. bace u punya first letter setiap kali kita gaduh i bace semua letter u bagi i :'( you sukakan i bila part .. u kacau i taruk kasut kt atas pintu haikal sedangkn blm taruk i da gerakkan pintu tu xP hahaha ! hais :') I sampai ckp sendiri u tahu tak .. ira btl2 sygkan muhd akiff :'( I kadang2 benci dgn diri i .. kenapa i selalu buat u mcm gini :'( Tadi bila kt dlm bus tk bbl tk apa ... i ckp kt dlm hati ... Ya allah , apa aku da buat ?! apa salah aku terhadap dia ? aku tk blh buat dia bahagia .. aku rasa ada ppn kt luar lagi blh uat dia bahagia .. biar lurh ira terseksa tapi jgn dia .. Pasal ira daripada dulu nk tgk dia bahagia and berjaya satu hari nanti kalau ira tk dpt bersama dgn muhd akiff bin kamal :'( I tknk relationship kita mcm i dgn shah dulu :'( Pasal i da byk meranah 2010 :'( I da terlalu meranah dlm hidup i gara2 semua ex i ... pasal hati i selalu ketepi .. perasaan i mcm tak pernah terjaga .. sejak i move on hati i kuat balik pun pasal you .. you buat i bahagia balik .. u changed me the happy ira den emo , lonely & sad all this bullshit stuffs :'/ I really love you sayang .. as what i say im trying to save all the money just to fulfill all the promises that i say towards you :') <3333 I buat ni semua pasal i sayangkn you .. You selalu cakap yang you're a bad boyfriend .. sedangkn i tgk org je tk appreciate you .. and u sanggup buat ape2 .. actually it should be opposite .. im the one is useless .. pasal sejak lepas birthday u ni semua .. i da tk semangat alik ... *sigh* I just want the old me .. the one that always be there for you and make u happu 24hrs .. ;'( Bila you sakit .. i risau ni semua sampai kita gaduh semua i sanggup turun sana bila tgh hujan lebat .. :'( bila i masuk bilik .. u tgh baring and peluk .. i rasa tenang bila u peluk i ... pasal i feel that everything is back to normal ... I just want the old us muhd akiff ! I rindu bila u bace kan i long message sedangkn time tu i tgh blush kt pondok .. remember ?! :') <333 Bila time tu kita nk balik loyang .. mana2 kita jalan nk otw gy skola dulu kita .. i mana2 ingt kenangan kita dulu ... main longboard , cycling , spend time dgn you .. pergi central sama2 beli i punya blueberyy donut semua etc .. I miss the good times about us .. not like now .. gaduh gaduh ! NOT GOOD :( i paling tk suke bila kita gaduh .. i pn tahu u tk suke .. You binget2 dgn i pun .. i tak pernah pun nak balas balik i diam je .. nak u calm down but it didnt work :'( Pasal im ur stupid gf .. *hmph* I paling rindu sekali bila kita dua rapat dgn kwn2 you bis , sayyidi semua .. i rather hang out with them den ite friends :'( hais ! pasal i feel much more better with them around .. sabrina semua .. i feel so much better ! Ite life i just feel sadness at there :'( I da bilang dgn you sblm kita jejak ite ... i da ckp i tkt kita akan gaduh ni semua .. and this is what happen :'( *sigh* </3 hais ! Please forgive me for what i've done to you ? I I want this relationship to be like before .. thats all i want .. nothing else ! i tak mintak pape pun dari you.. i cuma nak kasih syg you je :'( I want you to show to the world that this is us .. and im gonna be your first and the last till last breathe .. :'( tu je .. i tk mintak barang2 mepek .. cuma kasih syg je i perlu ! attention everything .. all this ! :'( Ku ingin engkau menjadi milikku .. aku akan mencintaimu menjagamu selama hidupku dan aku kan berjanji hanya kau lurh yg ku sayangi :'( <333 I cant deny that you're my one and only and you're my bestest man on earth :') <3333 *muah muah muah* :D Forever and always , I'll be loving you my baby boo :p <333 ^^ Senyum tau .. and say EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEe *cheeky face* hahaahah xD ^^ Lets make this relationship much more better syg .. show to the world that our love is way more sweet and natural pure .. ceyh xD ^^ hahaha ! kata THIS IS US :P Dont break my heart into pieces again baby :') I cant stop loving you .. Hmm ~